April 11th, 2015

There is something about those first few seconds when the rain lets up and the sun bursts through; You can feel the suns warmth while at the same time those cold rain drops are crackling on your jacket. At this moment, the brightness of the cherry blossom’s can truly be seen. They shine with a glistening pink that releases joy inside of me. All of these flowers that burst from the trees and the plants, but, especially the white flowers and the pink flowers. They stand out to me. They are beautiful. I kiss the trees and meditate.

It’s amazing how I can walk down a city street and be the only one on it. Then I pass by a woman, probably twice my age smoking a cigarette. Her face looks to be the texture of a catcher’s mitt. It’s not a negative thing. It’s a positive. She has lived. She has done things she wasn’t supposed to do. Her parents probably told her don’t smoke cigarettes and she smoked ‘em anyways. Because who’s to tell? The kid who doesn’t smoke cigarettes could get hit by a car at the age of 18, while the kid who starts smoking at 16 lives until 62.

I am not advocating smoking cigarettes. I am just advocating the taking of a risk. I want to take risks. I’ll take a risk and talk about something I don’t know even know about ;). Should I be in fear of looking a fool? I am not perfect. I am a flawed human being. So I’ll do it. I’ll make statements people may not like, I’ll eat ice cream and I’ll smoke cigarettes. I won’t do these things all of the time. There’s no need in being wreck less. But what’s the fun in doing exactly what your supposed to do?

I realize that no matter how different we want to make things look, we are not in control of the world. And it’s a positive thing. Because now I see it. And I am free of it. I will do everything in my power not to participate in it. I’d rather be homeless. Once I can recognize I am powerless and I have no control of the world I am finally free of the burden of the world. Now, I can focus on sharing love. Ah! And I love you!