\u00a0\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0I spent the majority of my time looking for my dog Oliver who disappeared the day of the disaster. After I spent a week looking for him I spent the next week being depressed and crying at losing him. It took a while but I managed to pull myself together enough to get to our governance team so that I can get assigned a role in our community. Here\u2019s hoping I get something I can do!<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Well I\u2019ve been assigned to the farm and medical group despite my issues with getting dirt under my fingernails. It\u2019s for the greater good though! After all, we all need food and many of us have health issues that need to be treated\u2026 I\u2019m still really sad that I can\u2019t find my dog Oliver and I can feel my mental health declining. I won\u2019t give up though! My dog would want the best life for me so I\u2019ll make the best life I can make for myself!<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0I\u2019ve spent this week learning how to identify what plants are useful and what plants are straight up dangerous. It\u2019s been hard but rewarding work and has helped me focus my mind on something other than my lost dog. It\u2019s almost meditative. Like my mind separates itself from my body through the act and allows me to feel the flow of space and time. Maybe through meditation I can learn some kind of skill that\u2019d help me find Oliver? It\u2019s a longshot but it\u2019s the only one I have at finding him so I\u2019ll take it!<\/span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span>That was both the best and worst idea I have ever had. I was able to separate my body and mind more fully but it came with a cost I had not foreseen\u2026 I now have to take the plant guide to bed as my legs don\u2019t work right now, like I forgot how to walk. At the very least that\u2019s it but it\u2019s still really scary that that was the cost for the briefest moment of spiritual separation. This will require further testing but I must be very careful.<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0Our food and medicine harvesting has borne fruit. We were able to not only successfully avoid the dangerous plants but also find plants that could be synthesized into medicines for people. This is a great step forward in our self-sustaining society and I\u2019m really looking forward to seeing us thrive despite this disaster. It is after all our new normal\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0New strangenessess have been abounding since my last journal entry. Like we have these morning announcements and they\u2019ve really helped us keep track of things and have some hope which is really good. However, sometimes I feel like I hear something else behind the voices\u2026 almost as if something is trying to break through and talk to us?<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Sometimes I feel like I can hear Ollie barking. When this first began it felt like it was just my stress manifesting itself; faint and far off. This made sense to me, after all he was- is my ESA animal and I always said we keep each other sane. \u2018I\u2019m just extremely depressed it\u2019ll pass\u2019 I thought to myself. But as time went on it changed; clear and consistent. I tried looking around for him when I heard this but as I drew closer and closer to the source the sound disappeared all of a sudden\u2026This well and truly scares me and I\u2019m beginning to wonder to it\u2019s meaning.<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Apparently I\u2019m not the only one hearing something strange over the radio. It\u2019s a voice! It\u2019s gotten a lot more clear over time too. I\u2019ve been reassigned to assist with investigating the strange radio voice in the hopes we can glean some relevant information. Maybe I\u2019ll even learn something about Ollie.<\/span><\/p>\n Still no sign of Oliver yet. I was concerned before but now I\u2019m downright beside myself. I\u2019m gonna go looking for him again. I just can’t stand not being able to find him. He was sometimes really annoying but he was also the light of my life. That\u2019s just how relationships go though right? It makes me think about how true that is and how I must keep that in mind when engaging with others even after all of this madness. April 17th-23 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0I spent the majority of my time looking for my dog Oliver who disappeared the day of the disaster. After I spent a week looking for him I spent the next week being depressed and crying at losing him. 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June 2nd – June 9th<\/strong><\/h2>\n
Hopefully I can recruit some people to help me look though I doubt it as Olympia is not looking great and we might be having to help them out. I truly hope its not as bad as it sounds as my best friends live there. Well, even if they didnt I wouldnt wish any ill will on people.
I find it hard to think about my trans journey throughout all this. It feels unimportant next to all of the strangeness of the world going on right now. It doesnt help that I’ve run out of meds for my hormone therapy. Despite all of that I want it to be important. Is that selfish of me?<\/p>\n\u00a0<\/h2>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"