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(Image: Ikea Monkey, from Lauren Kaelin<\/a>‘s Benjameme <\/a>series)<\/p>\n For this PsychicCity assignment I went to a cafe under the Friedrichstrasse S-Bahnhof, ordered some coffee and warm strudel, and answered the following questions (as offered by Jules).<\/p>\n Q: Honestly, how are you doing?<\/p>\n A: I’m very, seemingly inescapably tired. I’m sure everybody has heard me complain about it at this point–so sorry everyone!–but I really find it strange. No matter how much or how little sleep I get, I still feel exhausted for all but about 3 hours of every day.<\/p>\n Q: Do you hate it here or do you love it?<\/p>\n A: I would say that I like it a lot, but it’s hard to say whether I love it. It’s a sort of peculiar experience to be here for so long without needing to think about or plan for normal life things; and that makes it difficult to compare to other experiences.<\/p>\n Q: Are you homesick?<\/p>\n A: Nope. I really like living in an urban environment, so while I miss some people a lot I really don’t miss being in either Washington or Texas.<\/p>\n Q: Are things getting hard?<\/p>\n A: Some things are… Showering and laundry have become a bit stressful (which is bad because I’m already pretty lazy about those things), so it would be nice to be in a place where I felt like I had an equal claim again. My host parents are totally gracious, it’s just something I can’t help but to feel.<\/p>\n Q: What is your temporal experience?\u00a0(For example: I don\u2019t operate on dates or days of the week)<\/p>\n A: That still feels pretty normal, except that the weeks are passing very quickly (but that’s not uncommon when I’m at home either).<\/p>\n Q: Are you remembering things?\u00a0Can you access images and feelings and emotions at any point in this city? Are you unable?<\/p>\n A: I am reading this as asking if I’m able to access memories from earlier in life while on this trip; and I’m not sure if it is more or less than is usual but it is definitely a yes. I am especially reminded of many of my experiences when I first lived in NYC and I didn’t know the city very much so I was frequently just \u00a0a little bit lost, and a little too nervous to ask for help.<\/p>\n Q: Are your habits changing?<\/p>\n A: Some, but not as many as I expected (or perhaps hoped). I have been eating breakfast more regularly because my blood sugar has been a much more present concern than it normally is. I have also been going to sleep earlier than I do at home (except for one or two nights a week).<\/p>\n Q: \u00a0What is scaring you?<\/p>\n A: My general fatigue, and my struggle to become conversational (let alone fluent) in German are both worrying me with regard to my graduate school prospects.<\/p>\n Q: How do you handle being alone?<\/p>\n A: It’s honestly more that I need regularly (and sometimes struggle to attain) that it is something for me to cope with.<\/p>\n Q: What could you possibly do in a strange place to truly calm down?<\/p>\n A: I don’t know about Truly… but I typically find somewhere to nap. Sometimes that is at ‘home’ in bed, or sometimes it is on a bench somewhere, or even on the ground in a park if it is sunny and dry.<\/p>\n Q: Is class stressful?<\/p>\n A: Yes, I am struggling to stay on top of everything. This is due in part to the previously mentioned exhaustion\/fatigue, and partially to my own normal laziness and poor attention.<\/p>\n Q: What kind of thoughts are you thinking? There’s usually a pattern there.<\/p>\n A: Lately, a lot of pessimistic ones. :\/<\/p>\n Q: Do you miss anyone?<\/p>\n A: Yes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" (Image: Ikea Monkey, from Lauren Kaelin‘s Benjameme series) For this PsychicCity assignment I went to a cafe under the Friedrichstrasse S-Bahnhof, ordered some coffee and warm strudel, and answered the following questions (as offered by Jules). Q: Honestly, how are you doing? A: I’m very, seemingly inescapably tired. 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