Jessie Nace

April 2, 2015

Journal Entry 1

While watching Boyhood so many emotions went through my body love, hate, anger, and forgiveness. I know what it’s like to be a young mother trying desperately to provide for her children. Unlike Olivia I did have my husband for support. However my husband and I were both young when my son was born, and learning how to discipline, give up bad habits and focus on what needed to be done was harder for my husband to do. This made our relationship stressful, and on many occasions in the first few years I thought about just calling it quits. I feel that I can relate to Olivia in many ways, struggling for many years to get her degree, being real with her kids, not sugar coating life. In the scene where Olivia gets home and Mason Senior is hanging out with the kids, and nothing has been done she gets upset. I have been there, coming home to nothing being done, when my husband had been home longer than me. Routine is so important and time sneaks up on us and by the time homework, chores, dinner, bath and bed for the kids is doing its ten o’clock at night and you yourself have homework. I  Sometimes in the past, I have felt alone, like I was doing it all by myself. I also feel that I think too much, like at night when go to bed my brain doesn’t stop. Do I have everything ready for tomorrow, did I lock the door, are the light all turned off. My husband goes to bed and fall asleep in five minutes. In the scene at the end where Mason Jr. is leaving, Olivia starts to cry, and thinking about the future. Her whole life has been her kid and they are all gone now. I haven’t had any kids leave the nest yet, my son is 21 so it’s not far away, but time has gone by so fast, and as I get older I am thinking more about when they were little. The movie Boyhood left me thinking about my future how fast my kids have grown up, I am sad and excited all at the same time.