In Search of Lost Time

The Evergreen State College

Author: bazdav16

Traveling Through The Past

Traveling has always been an activity which has run through the veins for many of us. The absolute thrill of adventure and the sensations the undiscovered delivers second by second is a fascinating reward. In particular a recent experience occurred in Wyoming while surveying a Paleo-Indian archaeological site (which with the help from Proust) has radicalized my perceptions of not only myself, but also my heritage and above all, time.
Like Proust, the romance which the past infiltrates is very present in our profession as handlers of material culture. I keep finding myself going back to the Madeleine and also to the early passages of the Journey to Balbec and can’t help but transport myself with those very same emotions to places I’ve been where the expectations exceed the reality of the destination. What was idiosyncratic about this particular experience among the others was the adjacency of our early-entry point site next to the path of the Oregon trail and the wagon ruts they left as well as their names which enculturated my senses as my maternal ancestors were early trail blazers.
I wonder if I walked in the same steps as they, and now as a result I cannot help but think I was as close to living multiple lives through three different periods in time at once. In retrospect (a re-occurring ponder within the last few weeks) something has me perplexed in a multitude of emotions that can only be explained as anomie. An issue with being occupied with the accretion of history is the confusion the present brings to us. This alienation ( and the fear that the future can seem to bring) helps me emphasize with Marcel while also raising some serious questions and concerns.
The romance of time and history is quickly dissipated by the fulfillment that cynism brings by the appropriation the present has on it.

Almost like a reverse Madeleine affect, and just as quickly as I had entered this state of historical equilibrium walking among the spirits of my mothers ancestors, I was transported back out to the familiar artifacts of the worthless we will leave to following excavators. I felt a landslide of sadness that had no home until now. This sadness wasn’t for the litter, or for the assimilation of history (that is the nature of our being after all), but rather for the destruction of what time has brought, and the cruel reality many of us face of living too early, or perhaps too late in its continuum.Proust believes we must separate beauty and happiness apart in order to truly appreciate its meaning as its given to us. I believe romance and adventure applies to the same principle. The combination of the two manifests a depressing recollection of conjured, imaginary memories which are homeless to any part in our mind when they’re evicted by the notions of reality.

Shifting Sands: Deep Memory Project

Introduction
The Chehalis River Valley connects a series of rural communities in southwestern Washington primarily located along the aforementioned waters. Adna in particular is a peculiar region within the greater faction in the sense that its positioning between the progressive urban centers of Portland and Seattle, it continues to remain sequestered along the coastal foothills west of development as it seems to always have been. Chehalis(Łəw̓ál̕məš), or otherwise known in the Tsamosan-Coast Salish language as shifting sands defines perfectly the experience residing along its banks. Like the constant flooding, meandering, destruction, and recreation of the land yearly, so too are the memories and histories of those who have settled here. This equilibrium is not a new phenomenon to the area but rather has been a process of accretion and reciprocity for generations. This ethnography however, moves upstream through the past and acts more like bioturbation than a linear passage. Moreover, what attempts to be accomplished are the transgressions on time and space this community has encountered and how the experiences and actions of individuals through traumatic or pivotal events on the landscape has reinforced that perception. This work of the historical and contemporary era can only be understood by dredging up the archaeological past and seeing it from the long view as a place of consistent potential and appropriation since time has permitted human usage of it since the last Vashon glacial maximum.

Archaeological and Historical Analysis
Adna’s story is not the beginning but serves more as a continuation of diffusion that has existed in the region for centuries. Prior to the era of contact and later the homestead act of 1862, the region served as a vital transportation hub for the indigenous communities throughout the northwest. Conveniently located through a relatively flat passageway to the south towards the Columbia connecting both land and waterway to the west, and safely through a series of trail systems through the Cascades controlled primarily by the Yakima peoples (through a balanced reciprocity system) linked together a crossroads of trade networks affixing the area with cultures’ commodities as far reaching as Mexico. Resources such as mineral deposits and manufactured organic material like waterproof baskets from the Columbia basin made its way across the mountain range. Obsidian shards native to the high plateaus of Oregon and Eastern Washington have been found throughout the Chehalis and Yakima territories, hundreds of miles from its source. Smoked and fresh salmon as well as precious Eulachon oils imported from Athapaskan, Upik, and Coast Salishans from Alaska and British Columbia became highly sought after, including with early Russian trappers. Pemmican, a smoked cake of Wapatau and bitter root pounded with dried berries and salmon became vital for winter consumption in between seasonal rounds – as did the oil for passing it. These footpaths connected tribes virtually across the west and beyond linking up in Idaho with the Nez Perce and Shoshone, and heading south to the Acorn processors of the California cultures and further Nahuatl and Uto-Aztecan territories. This system of economy lead to a highly stratified society with royalty and slave ranks based on merit, lineage, ancestral rights, and reciprocity through the giving of Chilkat cedar blankets, and other adornments. Although evidence for the actual foot trail is scarce, and due to the rising of sea levels over three hundred feet, evidence for early migration theory is also predominantly inaccessible. This expansive trail system was observed by outsiders and documented firstly by Russian, French, and Spanish fur trappers and tradesmen as early as the 18th century and later the encroaching pioneers and cattle drivers who used the very same networks. By the mid 19th century the establishment of Claquato (now abandoned) and others to the north such as Tumwater, Alki, etc established the foundations for the present industry and roadways such as highway 30, Interstate-5, and others. As Pacific Union brought track lines to communities along the Chehalis the demand for officializing towns with railway structures gave Adna its name inspired by Edna Browning, an important early figure in the Euro-American settler community.

Predominantly agriculturalists and timber specialists were attracted to the area’s natural abundance of prairie lands, wildlife, and old growth and remains to be the majority of occupations held throughout Lewis county today. People mentioned throughout the pages to follow continue this legacy and are vital to the function of this community’s prosperity. The significance of traditions practiced in Adna by people such as Tom Paulin; a retired Yugoslavian-descended lumberjack are becoming more idiosyncratic to Adna and other surrounding unincorporated communities as the encroachment of land management companies such as home development firms and major players like Weyerhauser along with rising real-estate and other advances of modernity continue to permeate the countryside, the collective nature of core-values is changing while simultaneously shrinking the isolation and pastimes of the region.

Spring time in Adna is full of energy as the break in the dreary, wet winters experienced dissipate into fresh wind. Riding in the back wagon of Tom Paulins 1940’s Red International tractor leftover from his father the air is crisp and full of budding smells of wild grass, conifer, and flowers which traverse through the tips of your senses and passes by with the diesel fuming out the pipe. Heading into the grassy alfalfa pasture the sun hits the wall of evergreens in front of us like diamonds as the the fresh beads of rainwater shimmer and dance among the needles. Four hundred yards out leans a barn next to the creek which overflows into a large pond after storms. Brown and grey from weathering, yearning for a purpose again.
“ My dad built this one right around ‘45 and was used for mostly grain storage in those days instead of all my nicknacks in here – watch yourself on the nails coming up”
says Tom as we step over some scrap wood beams entering the dusty, dank, structure looking for spare parts to reinforce our chicken coops after the last storm damaged the rigged together frames.
“see originally this whole field including where Mikes’ and my trees are now used to be open for Cattle grazing until about the ‘70s when we sold ‘em off but now I just keep my lumber scraps in here until this place tips over for good, but that’s okay, I always got the other one down back at the house.”
While continuing to determine which roofing tiles and spare beams would hold up the best I became intrigued with the scenery no longer in front of me and began to ponder about how the relationship with the land has changed throughout a lifetime, and how it has provided for the well being of the community.
“ Just about everyone in the area up to Galvin over there by Centralia opened up to Cattle back then but that all started to change with the protections of state forest lands so the incentives for timber rose up again and we all replanted, and that’s where I found my calling was working outside in the woods. I tell ya, I tried college for a little while, I was actually studying engineering but just one day hit a wall and couldn’t hack it so I dropped out and got work in a saw mill – and it paid pretty well too. It was tough work but by’golly I loved it. Even the winter jobs up in the Cascades where one time it snowed on us all night and by morning we were cuttin’ through logs with snow up to here (signalling with his hand to his chest) but that’s alright, it makes a good story anyways.”
Like many Pacific Northwest dwellers, the importance of trees and forests are personal and imperative to our understanding of the world, and most importantly the landscapes of our memories like Lou Paulin: Uncle to Tom and an original family settler to the property who also greets us back at the more structurally sound barn next to the road. Strung up with white lights inside and out, they connect with the apple tree out front. Painted with Cadillac Ranch along its side in Norwegian red. Sitting at the cinderblock fire pit next to the original once white-now cream colored 1920’s bungalow adjacent to the barn Lou waves seeing us cross out into the field which made him curious as to our adventure. Instantly after beginning to tell him about the transition to the lumber industry he chimes in;
“oh you bet, I remember when we planted this one right here (pointing to the windy, curving Gravenstein apple tree) along with all them trees out there (pointing out into the field of 70 year old douglas fir and hemlocks). Of course there was more of these apple trees here then, we had an orchard here when we first moved to this place before the depression, and that’s what really fed us and our neighbors, this here is the only one left, the flood took out the other two still standing and one fell over from rot – what was it, 3 years ago now? anywho, I miss those times. It was the best time to be alive. People shared and worked together to get things done, and you could trust ‘em too. We all knew each other. Not like it is today with how crazy everything is, I watch too much news ‘cause now I have nothing better to do and everywhere seems like they’ve lost their minds. You couldn’t pay me to go to Seattle now, you just couldn’t.”
After hearing what Lou told me it made all the more sense about his character as being my neighbor who looks out in the field of grass all day for no reason at all. His purpose became clear. He wasn’t seeing the land before my eyes, none of them were, but rather the ghosts of old workers, the faint sounds of field songs, and rumbling of old early century machinery.

Social Discontent and the Dawn of 20th century modernity

Lewis county at the turn of the century experienced a continually changing (and rising) demographic which lead to an influx in the importation of ideas, allegiances, and occupations. Ultimately these challenges gave way to a climax of indifference and violence not uncommon to the unheavenly pastimes undermined in the Northwest. As a transportation and industrial network hub for major urban centers, the communities such as Adna which surround Centralia began to depend on the exportation of precious materials (primarily timber and coal) to the growing metropolis centers and federal infrastructures such as the military and rail companies. For the last 5 decades up the 20th century over 400,000 migrants made their way westward, many of whose final destinations included southwest Washington. Of these migrants included a large number of both Union and ex-Confederate veterans, outlaws,miners, bandits, loggers, sailors,dubious business entrepreneurs, prospectors, and tradesmen of both newfound American descent, and old world immigrants congregated in communities together alongside the Chehalis River. By the time of the arrival of peak migration, or shortly thereafter the core-values of early Lewis County began to divide as federalism and national identity started to capitalize on the citizens as well as the land. The years before The Great War saw expeditious claims of land by major players such as Weyerhauser company, Milwaukee Land company, Schafer Brothers, Weyern Timber company, and the Bureau of Land Management for several hundred acre plots for in some cases cents on the acre with the intentions of logging and coal mining.
Consequently, what became clear relatively quickly were the dangers and risks involved with participating in not just industrial positions, but also occupations with patriotic connotations such as logging, mining, and agriculture. Ideas of Unionization, pacifism, and other inferred socialistic mentalities grew greatly in Lewis County during the direct years leading up to, and equally so after the end of the first world war. As discontent spread due to the unequal reciprocity experienced by the private land companies and the federal government towards its employers for the price of products extracted, the popularity of organizations such as the Industrial Workers of the World (IWW) expanded into heavy labor regions and ports along the entire west coast, including Centralia and its surrounding communities as one of the forefront headquarters. Actively during The Great War, including the two and a half years prior to U.S. intervention in Europe, an increasing American home defense appetite required the cooperation of private land firms to contract timber plots out for military production. Including specifically the preference of old growth Spruce to support the construction of aircraft which Adna at the turn of the century remained to have standing, some as old as Rome. By the time of war reaching to the United States the situation in western Lewis County between various factions of loyalists, socialists, pacifists, and unionists seemed to leave no room for bystanders and in 1918 a new landscape was created.

In response to foreign policy, and the direct involvement of harvesting local forests for not only combative purposes, but for aircraft – a new time shortening machine with the potential delivery of awe, or devastation, the IWW or “wobblies” set fire to hundreds of acres of old growth spruce forests, forever changing the appearance of the landscape. Retaliations followed soon after including the bombing of IWW headquarters in Centralia as well as the lynching, threatening, and severe beatings of multiple known wobblies given by freshly organized Loyal Legion of Loggers and Lumbermen (4L), a group predominantly made up of pro-war veterans and anti-unionist laborers. Furthermore, Adna had introduced itself for the first time publicly to the nation.

1919 was a year to be believed as the beginning of humankind’s entering of understanding that clearly became a harsh realization for communities with numbers of returning individuals from the frontlines importing with them their experiences from overseas. In celebration of the first armistice day, the conjoinment of Chehalis and Centralia to conduct a memorial parade established one of the most attended events in either cities history up to that point which required the last minute maneuvering of parade routes creating a chaotic, but festive scene down main street, Cherry Lane, and N. Tower avenue, where the IWW’s new headquarters were established. Due to fear of treason, the IWW fabricated as an fictional organization when leasing a new center and whether what happened next was planned before its new establishment or not, the unthinkable happened.
as the 4L parade line marched down N. Tower avenue, witnesses and victims recounted the recollection of a series of moments which are still debated among parties today. What is fact is the 4L parade line turned about-face towards the IWW. It is also clear that wobblies were positioned tactically and armed accordingly so among rooftops, various vantage points, as well as compounded within the building now owned by McMenamins’ Olympic Hotel and Bar. What is not fact is who fired on who first. In the end 5 lay dead,one socialist, three 4L members and one marshal shot by a .22 500 yards out, gunned down in the street by wobblies. A 6th socialist attempted to flee with a broken pistol as defense but was shortly captured by loyalists while wading the Chehalis river, and was hanged nearby on the river bridge now connecting Adna to Chehalis along Highway 6. It was clear that the realities of human nature, and of post-war environments would not be eradicated so easily. This was the environment people like Lou Paulin were born into and where his story begins.

Testimonials
Born just shortly after the Centralia Massacre in 1921 to Tom Paulin sr., an Austrian with Italian nationality and mothered to Matilda a former Yugoslavian , Lou was raised during his early childhood in a town called Mendota where these emotions were still contested.
“It was a real different mind set then, the IWW felt real upset about wages rights. It was like the Wild West back then, everyone packed a gun and tensions were real high – you couldn’t go around saying just anything, people had real troubles then.” said Lou quietly and reserved. The only native born Washingtonian, the family moved from Montana where the couple married and birthed his siblings Matilda jr. Frank, and Joe to Mendota for work in the Mendota Coal and Coke Company who erected a town for the migrating workers. The Lewis county census records of 1930 indicate his father at 54 was renting a home for $6 a month as a miner. With 39 total residents and only 9 working bodies, Mendota was a small community of swampers, riggermen, miners and engineers.
“I lived there until I was 10 or 11 (8 years of age at 1930 census) when papa bought this land here in ‘33.” Says lou to me in his wistful, yearning voice.
“We liked it up there but the coal mine went corrupt and so the town folded with it. It was so different then. Those hills behind you originally were old growth, mostly Douglas Fir but some Cedar and Spruce too.”
His long face matched his pensive voice. Wherever Lou seemed to look it was as if his mind was turning pages in a book which gave a constant reflective gaze of both disappointment and collectiveness.
“we logged ‘em all out there in 1929 and we bought the land mostly for pasture after that from the Milwaukee Land Company for five dollars an acre if you can believe it.”
according to a 1940 township map made by Portland civil engineers,square plot number 26 to be exact, 140 acres immediately next to Weyer timber co. Geo. Geiszler, and State F.B.
“ Big timber back in those days, that’s really something you don’t see anymore. The bark and wood of those old growth’s made such better materials. They lasted so much longer than the crap today, panels and shingles seemed to last a lifetime.”
“yep, yep, you betcha they did, I remember the red tannins from those old cedars used on the barn runnin’ off the panels onto the ground around it, coloring everything bright red, you don’t see that anymore, they don’t get old enough.” piped Tom sitting near Lou on the tailgate of his red Dodge pickup.
“Hell – you can’t even find Cedar anymore! what’re ya gonna do when you have to replace those shingles Tom?”
“I really don’t know, it’s so damn expensive now ‘cause not many people grow or cut it anymore ‘cause it takes too long for ‘em to grow. They’re protecting what’s left of the old ones now which is for the best but it really is a shame ‘cause you won’t ever see them again like that.”
Some universal agreement and tailing off words of agreement lead to silence for some time and Lou retreated back into his book of nostalgia. Fixing his eyes above us towards the top of the barn he gives a good affirmative look before lurking our attention to where he’s looking before adding: “yahp, I remember throwin’ hay up there with papa. You used to have to do all that by hand, bales didn’t exist back then. What you had t’do was take that pitchfork and stab at the pile a few times and shovel it up the ramp. A lot of time I’d be up top there moving it down – that loft is still up there too by the way.
This old barn has held up well, took some work doing but its held up well. I’m surprised papa built one so big honestly, he only had a few cows but – God there’s a lot of traffic on this road” Lou interrupted himself as a caravan of cars drives by on the curvy, uneven, pothole ridden road that divides the property in half extending into centralia and Grand Mound to the north.
“The other day I was set up on the porch and counted over a hundred cars in just an hour! Even five years ago it wasn’t like this.” Said Lou, and something like it every time thereafter a vehicle passed by. “This used to be only a small gravel road and we didn’t have any telephone lines yet either. ‘Course when it did come out here you couldn’t ever use it ‘cause so many people would be using it or listening in on ya.”
Tom suddenly became inspired again to include that where the property I rent across the road used to be a part of Milwaukee Land Companies railroad.
“Yep that’s right, part of your driveway is too Lou, and a bit of mine, it started out towards Pe El west of here and snaked down through Lincoln and Bunker creek and ended just down there where my grapes are over there.” He said pointing eastward.
“ you can’t see it much anymore ‘cause they rip ‘em up as soon as they’re done logging through here, plus its been flooded and tilled up so much since then but the end of the line and the loading house was just there.”
Lou suddenly had a re-emerging inspiration about our previous conversation prior to the interruption of modern machinery and continued:
“I remember the logs they used to pull outta here, many were over 8 feet wide when I first move here. The community was real different in those days, nowadays everyone is American and there’s no argument over it, but then it was a lot of Germans, Dutch, Norwegians” – “and all those Swiss too who lived near the coast too” added Tom.
“right, we had all kindsa cultures and different languages then, but we somehow all made it work together. We helped eachother out all the time, neighbors were real good then.” he stumbled over his words as he trailed off mid sentence and shook his head. “not like today, you can’t even get anyone – “ he shook his head again, and further added: “its a shame this country went and killed us all off in our prime. I’m always amazed as to how someone like Hitler could do all that to us. Just like they’re doing now over there on the other side of the world. It’s all repeating itself.”
No one said anything. An unspoken nerve visibly hit Tom before anyone could think of what to contribute and made it his excuse to continue his day. Lou followed and the evening closed a little too familiarly.

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The weather in late spring is a pleasant unpredictability of golden sunrays which at a moments notice can turn into an attack of the clouds. One peculiar condition about Adna added to the sounds of spring are the sounds of various rumbles from timber felling, the adjacent dynamite factory, and shotguns greeting birds on crops is still an array of noises yet to become background to me. Shortly after a few explosive feeling rumbles felt inside our cedar cabin home cut and built by Tom, followed by the affirmed rain shower, we see his chipping red Dodge with his four legged co-pilot collie dog Sophie over at the Cadillac Ranch barn. The air of rural adna is pleasant during the warmer months, especially after spring rain when the sprouting evergreens throw its sweet, almost fruity aroma that lingers on your throat.
“Hey there kids! How ya doin?” Tom waves and yells as we walk across the smoky still glistening road down the gravel path leading to the barn.
“Did you hear that thunder a little bit ago?” I and my girlfriend confirmed we did and spoke of our confusion as to whether it was the dynamite factory half a mile down the road.
“Oh nope, nope, they don’t usually do that over there anymore, its mostly storage, although sometimes loggers will use dynamite including around here but it’s getting rare.”
Tom Paulin is known as the social butterfly of Bunker Creek, and lives up to his reputation by knowing just about everyone in Adna, and also from his family’s music success, some major outlaw country stars such as Willie Nelson, who once played in the barn we now stood in and is also respected among his generation of locals. His alternative reputation is also the ‘MacGuyver’ of mechanics, being able to fix anything from instruments to machinery, which is where we caught him currently, welding an old wheel cog to something older than both of us combined.
As a true outfitter, and also several decades spent in the lumber industry his face and hands are are plump and rough, but his downhome friendliness would never believe you to think of him as intimidating.
“I’ve used it a little bit and the old timers sure used to a lot. When I was about your age we used to still have quite a bit of old growth still left in this area and even more rotten core stumps still left and we used to use rope dynamite to bring those down. We would wrap a ring around the trunk and then chain it up so when it blasted we would pull it down. You had to be careful though, I know a buddy on the other side of Adna who broke his back in two spots once doin’ that.” with almost no hesitation he continued
“But the only thing they really use it now today for is when you fell a tree we sometimes would bring in a person called a ‘powder monkey’ who would set a charge of powder underneath the log and set it off with a trigger so we could scoop underneath it. I remember this one time we were up in the Cascades doing a job and we had felled this one old growth about ten feet wide and had to send in a powder monkey so in the mean time while we waited we had ourselves a food break and as long as we stayed on the other side of the log we’d be safe so anyways this guy comes by after a little bit to lean in on a story a buddy of mine is tellin’ and we didn’t have enough time to tell him ‘move’ before that cap went off and boy – byegolly I tell ya that guy jumped right into my friends lunchbox.”
Tom is a person who loves to tell stories of all types, and gets distracted often by the doings of others which almost always leads to a telling. His conversations meander like the lower Chehalis river from one spot to the next and always does so excitingly.
“ When logs were still big enough around here they were too heavy to be lifted even with our cranes that held up to ten thousand pounds, what I would do is take my 2 foot saw and lay into the trunk a few slits all along down it and then call for an engineer to plug em with a slow burning powder and a fuse running out each one and boy I kid you not it would make such a clean split you couldn’t ask for any nicer.”
“Its also hard to get now too and you have to go all the way into thurston county to lock it up each night so its not really worth the paperwork anymore.”
A casual breath and a wetting of the lips and back to it:
“ Real different times back then, it sure has changed a lot how everything is done now in such a little amount of time. It was hard work but I loved it” he said with a grin.
“ I could go on forever and bore your ears off with all that stuff but it was really great to be a part of that movement. It is really sad though that not much of the old growth is left around ‘cause its gone forever and the land really can’t support it again.”
As we weave in and out of storytelling and chatter, the clean ground brings out in the distance a pack of Roosevelt Elk up on the rocky, bare hillside grazing on the open range of foliage sprawling from treeline to treeline.
“Oh great the Elk are back! I haven’t seen ‘em in a while, they sometimes will come through here but not so much lately with that sickness they get going around.”
For the last decade or so hoof rot has become a virtual plague for many parts of western Washington to several contributing factors not well documented. Something I’m familiar with from working with Sheep, Horses, and Cattle, once the bacteria infects the ground, it seems to stay and as a result has spread to wildlife such as Deer and Elk.
Favorable conditions for promotion of the disease fits the common temperate climate of this region of 45-55 degrees.
I ask out of instant curiosity if the weather has changed at all within the last decade and immediately he responds: “Yeah you know it has a bit actually, the ground definitely is getting warmer than it was when I was kid. The old timers all had skates. We’d get snow and ice here regularly and bitter cold too, the Chehalis would freeze completely over now and again, maybe 5 or 6 times. We used to use horseback in those days, up until the 60s and 70s actually with skis attached to em and that’s how we’d pull logs down river during winter regularly. I haven’t seen it get like that in just about forty years though. The bees have gone away a lot too, they used to make the sweetest honey – Lou will tell ya that too, all of em would pollinate on the fireweed that used to grow here but doesn’t anymore. Maybe it does have something to do with the weather, but it has been warmer lately. The flooding is getting worse.”

Conclusion
Adna and the surrounding areas have no square inch left of untouched land. I can’t help but think within the last 10,000 plus years of known habitation along this river system every blade of grass has been trampled, and every forest visited. Although various cultures who have occupied this territory throughout time have utilized its resources for opposite objectives and functions, the purpose of settling here along with the wildlife is for the reasons; the illusion of safety. The Stories shared with me from multiple lenses are becoming a place-myth as modernity creeps like ivy further into its interior, making common pioneers like the Paulin family a growing minority. The importation of values has redefined new boundaries for the community blocking off the rural sides with affiliation to downtown residents as the influx of demographic has brought with it careers geared away from the land, viewing it as a form juxtaposed to a function. These changing shifts are divided as much as they were a century ago and the alienation of its local stories has left some with opinion of going against its own self interests. Down the road is a preserved cemetery apart of the old ghost town Claquato which contains some of the tallest trees left in western Lewis county, one of which a several century old cedar tree which Tom told me has his grandmother buried underneath it. This resting place seems a symbolic finishing point as the legacies of old lie peacefully underneath the roots of what made it all possible.

Ariadne Auf Naxos

Last night I went to the Seattle opera and experienced the German play Ariadne Auf Naxos. Roughly conducted around the same time as the release of Proust’s ideas and novel In Search Of Lost Time at the turn of the 20th century, writers Richard Strauss and Hugo Von Hofmannstahl fashioned a score and opera which transcends normality and tradition much like the few examples of early 20th century expression we have experienced by occupying multiple emotions and plots into a single performance. Tragedy meets comedy, myth meets fact, and the present conjoins with the past. Moreover, what is captivating about the act is the Proustian, self reflective and at times – debilitating mindset that is so well preserved and dictated.
At the very forefront despite all the other aforementioned realms occupied however, are the series of transformations experienced by virtually all characters and furthermore are depicted as the emotional extremes which lay in all of us similar in delivery like Proust’s narrator. Over-emphasized dramatic detail is the pinnacle of this opera and seemingly of the times which proust, Strauss, and Von Hofmannstahl were living in during 1915.
The synopsis is composed predominantly in two parts which is divided into two equal acts; the first being a brief 40 minute opera about a contemporary wealthy man displaying his prestige by presenting an piece about the mythology of the abandonment of Ariadne by Theseus on the Greek island of Naxos and the eventual arrival of Bacchius – proving his godhead. One major stipulation however, is the time constraints the firework show at 9pm sharp holds on the evening therefore the realms of both comedy and tragedy will happen simultaneously together.
One century ago this idea was quite revolutionary to how opera was viewed and presented and at first sparked great controversy but turned into a masterpiece relatively quickly. Its intentions were to convert the preconceptions of the operatic experience into a chaotic, and at times what seems bipolar representation of reality such as the unpredictability of events in our lives which transforms our personalities. Lyrically, transformation is represented literally countless times and the overall perception of it lies with the dangers of stagnancy and that death comes early to those who don’t move on both figuratively and quite physically.
Between the lines of this play are radical challenges to the contemporary society – and to ours. Depictions of drama versus comedy can be seen as the emerging contrast of “high art and “low art” – otherwise known as the contrast between the formal, sophisticated notions of exquisite taste or beauty compared to notions of sophomoric, generic, or otherwise “common” art such as comic strips etc.
By incorporating disruptive clowns . comedic gestures paired with elegance and exaggerated dramatic emotions conjures a disorderly, exhausting performance. As the world was greatly transitioning into what many thought was dangerous, depressing, potentially dull, or confusing, opera and artistic expression refused to remain stagnant with the archaic traditions the world has seemed to leave behind.
Obsession is all too reoccurring like in Proust, and conveys the same feelings of attachment and desire as a force of immobility, and an eventual decay of the soul as we see with M. Swann, the narrator, and others. Although the nature of the play is extremes of both frantic and collective, a feeling of familiarity and reassurance came over me as it reminded me that life is always unfinished, and unpredictable. The expression of self is only as current as we are and can be carried away on a shopping cart full of wine like Bacchius rescuing Ariadne from her captive: herself, transforming her sorrow for Theseus into a rebirth of joy.

Shifting Sands: Deep Memory Project

The Chehalis River Valley connects a series of rural communities in southwestern Washington primarily located along the aforementioned waters. Adna in particular is a peculiar region within the greater faction in the sense that its positioning between the progressive urban centers of Portland, Oregon and Seattle, it continues to remain sequestered along the coastal foothills west of development as it seems to always have been. Chehalis(Łəw̓ál̕məš), or otherwise known in the Tsamosan-Coast Salish language as shifting sands defines perfectly the experience residing along its banks. Like the constant flooding, meandering, destruction, and recreation of the land yearly, so too are the memories and histories of those who have settled here. This equilibrium is not a new phenomena to the area but rather has been a process of accretion and reciprocity for generations. This ethnography however, moves upstream through the past and acts more like bioturbation than a linear passage. Moreover, what attempts to be accomplished are the transgressions on time and space this community has encountered and how the experiences and actions of individuals through traumatic or pivotal events on the landscape has reinforced that perception.

Adna’s story is not the beginning but serves more as a continuation of diffusion that has existed in the region for countless centuries. Prior to the era of contact and later the homestead act in the mid 19th century the region served as a vital transportation hub for the indigenous communities throughout the northwest. Conveniently located through a relatively flat passageway to the south towards the Columbia connecting both land and waterway to the west, and safely through a series of trail systems through the Cascades controlled primarily by the Yakima peoples (through a balanced reciprocity system) linked together a crossroads of trade networks affixing the area with cultures’ commodities as far reaching as Mexico. This expansive trail system was observed firstly by Russian, French, and Spanish fur trappers and tradesmen as early as the 18th century and later the encroaching pioneers and cattle drivers who used the very same networks. By the mid 19th century the establishment of Claquato (now abandoned) and others to the north such as Tumwater, Alki, etc established the foundations for the present industry and roadways such as highway 30, Interstate-5, and others. As Pacific Union brought track lines to communities along the Chehalis the demand for officializing towns with railway structures gave Adna its name inspired by Edna Browning, an important early figure in the Euro-American settlers.

Predominantly agriculturalists and timber specialists were attracted to the area’s natural abundance of prairie lands, wildlife, and old growth and remains to be the majority of occupations held throughout Lewis county today. People mentioned throughout the pages to follow continue this legacy and are vital to the function of this community’s prosperity. The significance of traditions practiced in Adna by people such as Tom Paulin; a retired Yugoslavian-descended lumberjack as well as Mike and Liz Powell; German independent tree farmers are becoming more idiosyncratic to Adna and other surrounding unincorporated communities as the encroachment of land management companies such as home development firms and major players like Weyerhauser along with rising real-estate and other advances of modernity continue to permeate the countryside, the collective nature of core-values is changing while simultaneously shrinking the isolation and pastimes of the region.

Spring time in Adna is full of energy as the break in the dreary, wet winters experienced dissipate into fresh wind. Riding in the back wagon of Tom’s 1940’s Red International tractor leftover from his father the air is crisp and full of budding smells of wild grass, conifer, and flowers which traverse through the tips of your senses and passes by with the diesel fuming out the pipe. Heading into the grassy alfalfa pasture the sun hits the wall of evergreens in front of us like diamonds as the the fresh beads of rainwater shimmer and dance among the needles. Four hundred yards out leans a barn next to the creek which overflows into a large pond after storms. Brown and grey from weathering, yearning for a purpose again. “ My dad built this one right around ‘45 and was used for mostly grain storage in those days instead of all my nicknacks in here – watch yourself on the nails coming up” says Tom as we step over some scrap wood beams entering the dusty, dank, structure looking for spare parts to reinforce our chicken coops after the last storm damaged the rigged together frames.
“see originally this whole field including where Mikes’ and my trees are now used to be open for Cattle grazing until about the ‘70s when we sold ‘em off but now I just keep my lumber scraps in here until this place tips over for good, but that’s okay, I always got the other one down back at the house.” While continuing to determine which roofing tiles and spare beams would hold up the best I became intrigued with the scenery no longer in front of me and began to ponder about how the relationship with the land has changed throughout a lifetime, and how it has provided for the well being of the community.
“ Just about everyone in the area up to Galvin over there by Centralia opened up to Cattle back then but that all started to change with the protections of state forest lands so the incentives for timber rose up again and we all replanted, and that’s where I found my calling was working outside in the woods. I tell ya, I tried college for a little while, I was actually studying engineering but just one day hit a wall and couldn’t hack it so I dropped out and got work in a saw mill – and it paid pretty well too. It was tough work but by’golly I loved it. Even the winter jobs up in the Cascades where one time it snowed on us all night and by morning we were cuttin’ through logs with snow up to here (signalling with his hand to his chest) but that’s alright, it makes a good story anyways.”
Like many Pacific Northwest dwellers, the importance of trees and forests are personal and imperative to our understanding of the world, and most importantly the landscapes of our memories like Lou Paulin: Uncle to Tom and an original family settler to the property we all live on today who also greets us back at the more structurally sound barn next to the road strung up with white lights and painted with Cadillac Ranch along its side. Sitting at the cinderblock fire pit next to the original once white-now cream colored 1920’s bungalow home Lou waves to us and explains seeing us cross out into the field made him curious as to our adventure. Instantly after beginning to tell him about the transition to the lumber industry he chimes in; “oh you bet, I remember when we planted this one right here (pointing to the windy, curving Gravenstein apple tree) along with all them trees out there (pointing out into the field of 70 year old douglas fir and hemlocks). Of course there was more of these apple trees here then, we had an orchard here when we first moved to this place before the depression, and that’s what really fed us and our neighbors, this here is the only one left, the flood took out the other two still standing and one fell over from rot – what was it, 3 years ago now? anywho, I miss those times. It was the best time to be alive. People shared and worked together to get things done, and you could trust em too. We all knew each other. Not like it is today with how crazy everything is, I watch too much news ‘cause now I have nothing better to do and everywhere seems like they’ve lost their minds. You couldn’t pay me to go to Seattle now, you just couldn’t.”
After hearing what Lou told me it made all the more sense about his character as being my neighbor who looks out in the field of grass all day for no reason at all, his purpose became clear. He wasn’t seeing the land before my eyes, none of them were, but rather the ghosts of old workers, the faint sounds of field songs, and rumbling of old early century machinery.

traveling through the past

Traveling has always been an activity which has run through the veins for many of us. The absolute thrill of adventure and the sensations the undiscovered delivers second by second is a fascinating reward. In particular a recent experience occurred in Wyoming while surveying a Paleo-Indian archaeological site (which with the help from Proust) has radicalized my perceptions of not only myself, but also my heritage and above all, time.
Like Proust, the romance which the past infiltrates is very present in our profession as handlers of material culture. I keep finding myself going back to the Madeleine and also to the early passages of the Journey to Balbec and can’t help but transport myself with those very same emotions to places I’ve been where the expectations exceed the reality of the destination. What was idiosyncratic about this particular experience among the others was the adjacency of our early-entry point site next to the path of the Oregon trail and the wagon ruts they left as well as their names which enculturated my senses as my maternal ancestors were early trail blazers.
I wonder if I walked in the same steps as they, and now as a result I cannot help but think I was as close to living multiple lives through three different periods in time at once. In retrospect (a re-occurring ponder within the last few weeks) something has me perplexed in a multitude of emotions that can only be explained as anomie. An issue with being occupied with the accretion of history is the confusion the present brings to us. This alienation ( and the fear that the future can seem to bring) helps me emphasize with Marcel while also raising some serious questions and concerns.
The romance of time and history is quickly dissipated by the fulfillment that cynism brings by the appropriation the present has on it.

Almost like a reverse Madeleine affect, and just as quickly as I had entered this state of historical equilibrium walking among the spirits of my mothers ancestors, I was transported back out to the familiar artifacts of the worthless we will leave to following excavators. I felt a landslide of sadness that had no home until now. This sadness wasn’t for the litter, or for the assimilation of history (that is the nature of our being after all), but rather for the destruction of what time has brought, and the cruel reality many of us face of living too early, or perhaps too late in its continuum.Proust believes we must separate beauty and happiness apart in order to truly appreciate its meaning as its given to us. I believe romance and adventure applies to the same principle. The combination of the two manifests a depressing recollection of conjured, imaginary memories which are homeless to any part in our mind when they’re evicted by the notions of reality.

Close Readings Of Proust: Within a Budding Grove pg 316-321

 

Close Readings of Proust’s In Search of Lost Time Volume II: Within a budding Grove

Place-Names – The Place pg. 316 – 321

David Bazzano

Proust lived and wrote during an exciting as well as tumultuous era for French and Western European cultures as the rise of modernism and industrialism socially interacted with the daily lives of the general public. Along with the introduction of new technologies also came new forms of thought and expression such as existentialism and idealism (traits and feelings the author as well as the narrator both share) which challenged not only the centrality of religious attitudes but also the ascribed status of individuals. As a result the era that Marcel is entering is a process of diffusion which has ultimately left himself (and in reality many others) confused about the relationship with the natural world. During his time traveling to Balbec the actuality of these events unfold before him as the time-space continuum is altered both mentally and physically by the experiences manifested from the locomotive, and also the confrontations with structure and agency as he witnesses the social order of things en route from Cosmopolitan Paris to the coast.

…in the pale square of the window, above a small black wood, I saw some ragged clouds whose fleecy edges were of a fixed, dead pinkm not liable to change, like the colour that dyes the feathers of a wing that has assimilated it or a pastel on which it has been depositied by the artist’s whim. But I felt thatm unlike them, this colour was neither inertia nor caprice, but necessity and life. … for I felt that it was related somehow to the most intimate of life of Nature….If a person can be the product of a soil to the extent of embodying for us the quintessence of its peculiar charm, more even than the peasant girl whom I had so desperately longed to see appear when I wandered by myself along the Meseglise way, in the woods of Roussainville, such a person must have been the tall girl whom I now saw emerge from the house and, climbing a path lighted by the first slanting rays of the sun, come towards the station carrying a jar of milk.” -pg 316-17

In particular the entrance of the country woman who provides coffee and milk to the patrons on board manifests before him not only as a similarity to his fantasy of a peasant woman in Combray, but also as an exotic romance which forces him to recognize unforeseen emotions about ones destiny and furthermore, habit and its conflict with beauty or happiness.

One aspect of the narrator which relates to Proust is the fascination with impressionism and its emphasis on the depiction of reality and the passage of time. Exhibitions from artists such as Monet, Renoir, Manet, and Sisly captivated the author by their representations of landscapes which is clear in description throughout the novel, but on a more complicated level, a recipe for conjuration of the narrator’s mind.

What becomes clear after reading the beginning of this passage is the influences of the the Parisian impressionist mindset which continues to be repeated throughout the novel – especially the Monet influence of rooftops and lighting effects. These depictions however, also convey a romance or contemplation which reflects itself among individuals (particularly women) and repetitively is not just described but occurs before, during, and after these moments of epiphany or sense of clarity to the young narrator such as when the milk lady enters the train. From this point onward he is transfixed on this moment for the duration of its occurrence creating a memory as it is unfolding.

Flushed with the glow of morning, her face was rosier than the sky. I felt on seeing her that desire to live which is reborn in us whenever we become conscious anew of beauty and of happiness. We invariably forget that these are individual qualities, and, mentally substituting for them a conventional type at which we arrive by striking a sort of mean among the different faces that have taken our fancy, among the pleasures we have known, we are left with mere abstract images which are lifeless and insipid because they lack precisely that element of novelty, which is peculiar to beauty and to happiness. And we deliver on life a pessimistic judgment which we suppose to be accurate, for we believed that we were taking happiness and beauty into account, whereas in fact we left them out and replaced them by syntheses in which there is not a single atom of either. So it is that a well-read man will at once begin to yawn with boredom when one speaks to him of a new ‘good book’ because he imagines a sort of composite of all the good books that he has read, whereas a good book is something special, something unforeseeable, and is made up not of the sum of all previous masterpieces but of something which the most thorough assimilation of every one of them would not enable him to discover, since it exists not in their sum but beyond it. Once he has become acquainted with this new work, the well-read man, however jaded his palate, feels his interest awaken in the reality which it depicts.” pg 318

Importantly, what many of us forget daily are the actual separations between beauty and happiness which all too often is conjoined together as a similar entity that has certainly taken young Marcel by surprise upon seeing something independent from his frame of references. Only from our memories, and prior convictions of the true state of particular emotions can we understand or make sense of the unknown. Arguably our judgment of newly introduced people or things in our lives are determined by previous encounters, or by assimilation of a personality, a face, voice, or kinesics can we replace the feeling of uncertainty with familiarity. The pessimistic nature of humanity is the fact that we often don’t realize it and take what we perceive to be as beauty and happiness as the limit of what has been already experienced, or for the yearning of an impossible paradise. Marcel understands this almost immediately when encountering the lady on the train as for a moment time has frozen and the realization that his assumptions of reality are disproved and he in a sense, becomes reawakened. Such as the stubborn well-read person rediscovering what a work of art is, so to is Marcel by observing a new world to explore through the woman in front of him.

As a rule it is with our being reduced to a minimum that we live; most of our faculties lie dormant because they can rely upon Habit, which knows what there is to be done and has no need of their serviced. But on this morning of travel, the interruption of the routine of my existence, the unfamiliar place and time, had made their presence indispensable. My habits, which were sedentary and not matutinal, for once were missing, and all my faculties cam hurrying to take their place, vying with one another in their zeal, rising each of them, like waves, to the same unaccustomed level, from the basest to the most exalted, from breath, appetite, the circulation of my blood to receptivity and imagination. I cannot say whether, in making me believe that this girl was unlike the rest of women, the rugged charm of the locality added to her own, but she was equal to it. Life would have seemed an exquisite thing to me if only I had been free to spend it, hour after hour, with her, to go with her to the stream, to the cow, to the train, to be always at her side, to feel that I was known to her, had my place in her thoughts. She would have initiated me into the delights of country life and of early hours of the day.” pg. 319

Habit creates the perimeters in which we find normalcy and regularity in the world which plays an important role in who we choose to participate in our lives as well as what we find enjoyable. However, habit can conflict with the predetermined structure and agency present among all societies but in relation to France in the 19th century certainly included ones ascribed status and social doxa within. In other words, the capacity of individuals to make free choices juxtaposed to the influences or limitations set for an individuals societal role can conflict with what we choose to take for granted. When Marcel is faced with this woman his conceptions of normality are provoked by the lady’s difference in lifestyle being a farmhand in a rural setting. This is not only exotic but also challenging in that his role as a sophisticated Parisian who dares not work under the sun permits him to avoid such confrontations in a typical setting. These feelings ultimately grow and redevelop within minutes it seems as the train departs before his chance to speak with her and is obliged to view her again, as another memory.

I saw her leave the station and go down the hill to her home; it was broad daylight now; I was speeding away from the dawn. Whether my exaltation had been produced by this girl or had on the other hand been responsible for most of the pleasure that I had found in her presence, in either event she was so closely associated with it that my desire to see her again was above all a mental desire not to allow this state of excitement to perish utterly, not to be separated for ever from the person who, however unwittingly, had participated in it. It was not only that this state was a pleasant one. It was above all that (just as increased tension upon a string or the accelerated vibration of a nerve produces a different sound or colour) it gave another tonality to all that I saw, introduced me as an actor upon the stage of an unknown and infinitely more interesting universe; that handsome girl whom I still could see, as the train gathered speed, was like part of a life other than the life I knew, separated from it by a clear boundary, in which the sensations aroused in me by things were no longer the same, from which to emerge now would be, as it were, to die to myself.” pg 320

An aspect of this passage which struck as peculiar is the reference to “speeding away from the dawn” which has a similar demeanor to time travel. With the public access of locomotives (as well as the advancement of its own ingenuity) and vehicles, a sense of time speeding up, and breaking away from points of lightness or darkness became a profound realization for many turn of the century individuals whose reference to time and distance underwent drastic change with the new convenience of travel. As this form of time warp is happening to Marcel, the ideas of parallel worlds, and pre-destiny flood his thoughts as he sees the woman at the station in rear-view, making the memory occur faster than organically. This moment of contemplation has almost traumatized a part of his very soul into sticking with the woman he is departing from which rings true to popular resurrections of Greek and Roman mythology and philosophy. These feelings of dis-attachment, and the frustrations that agency has on individuals wanders his mind finally to the questioning of hierarchy where he says:

But alas, she must be for ever absent from the other life towards which I was being borne with ever increasing speed, a life which I could resign myself to accept only by weaving plans that would enable me to take the same train again some day and to stop at the same station, a project which had the further advantage of providing food for the selfish, active, practical, mechanical, indolent, centrifugal tendency which is that of the human mind, for it turns all too readily aside from the effort which is required to analyse and probe, in a general and disinterested manner, an agreeable impression which we have received. And since at the same time, we wish to continue to think of that impression, the mind prefers to imagine it in the future tense, to continue to bring about the circumstances which may make it recur – which while giving us no clue as to the real nature of the thing, saves us the trouble of re-creating it within ourselves and allows us to hope that we may receive it afresh from without.” pg 321

His realization of classism is apparent in his awareness of his life expectations instilled by his surrounding kinship and social order, but this moment rings quite important to the character as for one of the first times his ability to perceive the life he was given, next to the life he can, could, or should lead in an alternate setting if not for the current order of things. Moments such as this are still familiar with the present as the lives we lead still carry core-values from how society has positioned us. Furthermore in conclusion, are memories just an image? A boring time stamp which become more eventful or important to us in the future than the actual event really had? Or is memory romantic and residual? A place for your mind to go wander and visit once in a while? Proust is keen on the assumption that without time, our memories have no holding or purpose and without feeling, our memories are but nothing except photographs from someone else family scrapbook.

 

Turning Points

Pivotal Moment
Assignment 1
David Bazzano

My childhood is something I didn’t think would follow me for long after I first entered what is known as the real world. In fact, until recently the tacit culture of my upbringing was a relatively neglected aspect for my mind which resulted in a wistful longing for the escape to my memories by tasting my identity. Growing up Sicilian in America for any generation is a struggle because the history of our identity continues to largely be marginalized or exploited which has for centuries lead our customs to become sacred knowledge isolated within the family. Our natural distrust and fear for outsiders because of these mechanisms required both the history of families in this country and the old to protect what power we have by preserving without words but with magic in the form of cuisine.

Like the church or Molocchio, food in my family has always been the guardian and messenger, and listener for our lives. More than just subsistence, the culinary traditions familiar to us tell a story of who we are, and most importantly how we got here. This story however, is not written with ink but rather changes with time and history as members add to the pot. Like magic however, spells can be broken, altered from originality or even forgotten if taken for granted or dismissed which was a reality I faced when first living on my own.

Dishes which seemed ordinary growing up soon became exotic destinations unreachable as my own arrogance deceived me when placed in the solitude of unfamiliar landscapes. Having the inability to recreate the emotions which transported me away from the present, to a space and time impenetrable from the moving world or assimilation. I felt abandoned, and disconnected as if sitting at a train station waiting for my personality to arrive. What’s frustrating about de facto languages are the inabilities to translate particular emotions or state of beings inherited through tradition and the same can be said for the saudade I felt in my early years on my own. What became clairvoyant and clear to me was the center of my being involves continuing the legacy of conjuring and communicating through the experience created through cuisine. Swirls of tastes which bring colors and sensations to the mind, spices which represent so many forms of struggle and resistance, perhaps even anger or even the trance-like rhythm involved in so much of the process. Without access to these subtle feelings and ingredients, life was a very different dance I was out of step with.

If we aren’t careful our identity is extremely fragile. Who we are isn’t entirely a lengthened shadow of our environments or institutions and most certainly not on our own terms. The greatest gift is accepting where you need to go which became evident as I grew further away from my upbringing surrounded by a haven of extended family. As a society closely linked with the celestial worlds, memories and functions such as family feasts so notoriously known about our way of life are multifaceted ceremonies which help keep the spirits of those moved on, or in distant places with us through what we consume. Mangia.