Thinking about the simple truth of we are all beings of individual experience. I think of the fact that we are beings. We are experience, individual. Hmmmm. Something about the clock here. I keep thinking about the clock and how we follow the rules of a clock so religiously. I think about the clock and the world we live in, it is mechanic and artificial. It seems that we are training ourselves to be disconnected from what we are trying to tell ourselves. What our bodies hearts and minds scream to us every waking day.

Example. Base off of logic and some stuff I have read. Giving birth, many muscles are used. It is commonly know, I think, that muscle tension in general is not a good thing. We get massages and all sorts of remedies meant to cure the tension. Now I think of a hospital. These places are built, sterile and inhumane. Clean is good, but who can say they feel comfortable in a hospital? Now when it comes to giving birth in one, somehow we have convinced ourselves that this is the way to do it. Sometimes it is necessary. I think though, giving birth in a stress free environment, one where it is possible to be calm as possible that seems important. I have heard of many very successful homebirths. I have also heard of many C-sections in the hospital.

This leads me on the tangential path of us fucking up our bodies by not listening to them, and instead listening to these other forces around us that seem social and helpful but may be anything but.

We are told what food to eat, how much to sleep, what to do for exercise, what habits are good, how to be happy, to take medications to cover up problems, to suck it up and push through, to be this and not be that. On and on and on.

We are social creatures yes. So I feel that fact must play a role in our health. I was just reading a study about synchronicity between humans and increase in pain tolerance. What does that say?

Are we really getting the help we need from humans who want to help us? Are we living in a community of people who love and care for one another? Or are we becoming isolated and blunted, insensitive to the world around us as we listen to the words of corporate life that feeds off of money. Are we listening to a fictitious creature that lives off of our perpetuation of that fiction? Must we devote our lives to keeping this creature alive? Are we also living in a world that makes it so difficult for us to listen to our bodies, to celebrate them and understand them?

Maybe we should keep throwing drugs at the pain and discomfort, dumbing ourselves to sensation. Maybe we should take more drugs for psychological ailments and forget about the roots of the problem or other ways of helping these people.

Think think think….

Are we living in a world that disconnects us from ourselves? From our bodies and minds? Are we addicted to feeding the creature? (Capitalist, corporate, profit driven priority.)

From a book: Most of our world is made up inside our heads.

From Buddhist philosophy: take away craving, aversion- the need to control. Replace with awareness to all things. Everything changes. Feel and be aware

My thoughts: what role does social relationships have in us being aware? Of experiencing? Why is relation, friendship, synchronicity, solidarity important?

Research: Synchronicity, the social animal, mindfulness, meditating, stress, environmental factors in shaping the human experience, the human experience- also based on context.